feeling like i couldn’t be more invisible lately. also i almost wasn’t going to let myself leave the dorm today because last night i had a mini-meltdown kind of thing and when i was trying to fall asleep I just kept imagining throwing myself in front of a car or off a bridge and obviously it freaked me out quite a bit. and i was just afraid that if i let myself go outside i would do something stupid but i’m here mainly because i can barely muster up the effort to do anything at the moment.
commit this to memory
